The life-long search for purpose.

"As one day slips from white and bright into purple and permeated by shadows, so too does the summer. The summer of our lives, one might say. The summer during which we must enjoy ourselves the most, for it is our last as youth. This may not be true, though. I see already the many things that eat my time from within. Work and soccer and work and water quality sap the life out of the day. Pity those in pain and those who do without, but pity those who are alone the most. For alone is a horrible place to be by yourself. Maybe...no, not maybe. I am scared. Scared of change and growing up and moving on. Things were good when we were young, or so they say. I think they were right." -Derek Walton


The more I think about that, the more I realize how true it is. Life is so short, and this is our last summer before we're out on our own, no longer living life care-free.... or as care-free as it could ever get. I'm finally realizing that I'm actually going to miss it. I mean, after all, I am going to be leaving sooo much behind. Friends, Family, the only life I've ever known. I'm looking forward to the days ahead... but dreading them at the same time. I guess this is it. I've only got one more summer as a kid. I guess I better get to work.

God Bless,Peace Easy, Pray for Alimo.

WOW!!! OK MANDY I'M UPDATING!!!

Life has been sooo busy, but fun nonetheless! I've been gone like everyday and the best part of life right now is that I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL!!! YES!!! 1 year and I'm out of here. I so cannot wait. I've been feeling really good lately, with the exception of one situation, but I'm not letting it get me down. I love just being all chill and having a wonderful time with my closest friends. I'm finally tan too!! I've been to the beach like every single day and I've been swimming a lot. I love the water! I think that I was having so much fun snowboarding this winter that I forgot how much I loved swimming.

I'm finally home for a little bit, so I'm doing some laundry and packing up about a weeks worth of clothes. Haha I have no idea what I'm doing but I'm never home in the summer so I figured I need to pack up for a while.

All I can think about is next year. I just can't wait to graduate and get out of here. I know I'm really going to miss certain people, but sometimes I don't even know if the feelings mutual, so whatever. All I know is that I'm gunna get out there and see what God has planned for me!

Well, summer is here so I guess I need to make the best of it.. after all... it is my last summer of my high school career... before my life in the real world starts. Give me a call and we'll chill.

Haha it's kind of funny because just now my song for Elizabeth started playing.... I'm really gunna miss that girl. I already do.

God Bless, Peace Easy.

Don't forget to pray for Alimo, people!!! We love you and miss you Alimo! God is protecting you and he will bring you back to us soon!!

"Take Me"

Can you hear me? Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see Your face tonight
And I’m willing to lose everything I am

Cause I need you more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ve been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

When You’re near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won’t be coming back to here again

I need Your loving hand to guide me
Through the maze of all the things inside me
Then I’ll know that I’m alright

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I've been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not along anymore
Please help me get from worse to better
Before these tears soak through this lonely sweater
And let me know that I’m alright
I still have one strike of this match left
And I’m holding on to my last breath
And its getting a little dark around to see here

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on it will be alright
You’re not alone

And You’ll be here forever, forever You’ll stay
And You promised to love me, You’ll love me always
You’ll love me for always, You’ll love me for always
Always

Josh and I went to West End Beach and jumped off the pier. It was so cold that I seriously think we started to get hypothermia. I would still do it again though. Symbolically, it helped us just to let go of crap... plunge right in and wash the junk away from us... even just temporarily. That's what skipping youth group did for us tonight. I don't like missing youth, but it had to be done. I feel a lot better now, and it wasn't entirely unproductive either. We had a bible study and read out of some helpful passages, but overall, I'm still on this stupid quest. I just need to find some answers. Well whatever they may be, wherever they may be, I guess I'm still gunna keep searching. It's friends like Josh and Elizabeth that keep you going. If you don't have friends like them, I must say, I feel very bad for you.

I'm just not sure about so much right now. No matter what though, my faith will remain. I love God with all my heart, and nothing is going to change that. Satan may be winning some sort of rediculous battle right now, but it doesn't matter, because all-in-all, God's got me and he's won the war. I just hate that my anger, selfishness, stress, lack of motivation, etc. are getting the best of me. It sounds like I'm being taken over by the "dark side of the force" or something like that. haha. "Cory, I am your father." Bull Crap. God is my father, so step down... loser.

Hope all of you are stayin strong.

Prayers are welcome. Thanks.

Peace Easy. God Bless

I've been listening to my Matthew West CD today and I feel a little better because of this song. I think you all should read it if you're feeling down even the slightest bit, or even just because it's wonderful. I love how he wrote this from God's perspective, it's absolutely amazing and totally true. Ugh... wish I would listen to it more.



"Take a look at the mountains
Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean
Far as your eye can see
And think of Me

Take a look at the desert
Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever
Where you go is where I am

And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look around you
I'm spelling it out one by one

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more

Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to Me

And I want you to know
That I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more

Shine for Me
Shine for Me
Shine on, shine on
Shine for Me

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more"


Peace Easy I guess. God Bless

So I went to rendezvous again last night. VERY SWEET as expected. Chels was awesome as usual and I got to hear the funniest song. It was about N.M.C. Joey and I were singing it like all day today... here are the lyrics I can remember.

I just can't wait to be
a two year pine tree
at the one and only
N.M.C!

all my friends are gunna be
spartans and wolverines
but me, I'm gunna be
a stupid pine tree!

and I can't really remember anything else, I've just been singing the chorus all day haha! So then Josh picked me up and I got to meet Amanda Wyskochil, and some other people. Amanda was a really cool girl, with a cool personality, and she even gave me her little star thing with her picture/name on it. I also got a chance to talk to Maggie which was awesome, I hadn't seen her since like Beauty and the Beast way back when.

After that Josh and I went to Cam's house and watched Meet the Fockers, which was absolutely hilarious. This morning church was sweet, and I know it sounds really bad but I'm really excited that next week is our last for ushering!!! I can't wait to get back to worship the way I love it so much. Josh and I have been creating our own usher-worship-technique thing which is sweet. It might be a little unorthodox, but hey, it's still a lot of fun! I'm kinda nervous though cuz next week is communion. Yay for us!

I went to Joe's after church today and we made gi-normous double decker burgers... OH MAN!! Those were good enough to turn any vegetarian into a raging, snarling, panting, jungle beast! (haha j/k inside joke I dunno who will get it...) Then we just chilled and talked about the stuff that's goin on in our lives, it was pretty sweet. We even went two-tracking after we got out of church, so that we could avoid the traffic.

Everybody went to see Episode III today. Mom and Dad were in a grouchy mood today so they wouldn't let me go. Eh, whatever... gotta respect em... so I just came home and did some work for my dad, and watched Return of the Jedi. That was pretty sweet. I still got my own little Star Wars fix.

I just heard thunder a few minutes ago. It was really loud! I hope there is a huge storm tonight! I'm in the mood for one of those! Maybe I'll go run outside and dodge the bolts! Wish me luck :P

Well there is a really stupid movie on Sci-Fi right now, so naturally... I'm gunna go watch it with the fam!!

Peace Easy!!!

Rendezvous was absolutely amazing!!! AHHH!!! Singing is so beautiful! My favorite of the performing arts by far! I couldn't believe how wonderful it was... deffinately worth the money! I heard some of the most amazing voices I have ever heard in my whole life!! I really want to go to it again tomorrow so I can hear my Chels sing!!! OH MY GOSH that girl is phenomenal!!! Maggie was absolutely amazing as well, and same with Joe and Kellen. Holy crap they're all so good! I love choir so much! Mandy was looking very pretty tonight also, and singing just as well I might add ;)!! Deffinately gunna convince Cam to go tomorrow so that I can go again! (Thanks again Manders for lettin me chill at su casa.)

Magnifico... Marvelous... Wonderful... Delicioso!!! haha..

peace easy!

P.S. Have to make a quick edit here... WHITNEY WAS SOOOO AMAZING!!!! I can't believe I forgot to mention her when she was one of the absolute best ones, and she sung a song that has so many memories for me... haha it was an oldie! I LOVED IT!!! ROCK ON WHIT!

hmm... the title says it all. I went to school... and then I went to the park with Beger for like... 45 min.... played some b-ball.... then I came home. I wonder what I'm gunna do tonight. Manda is havin a thing but it's only for selected people. Haha... my closest friends actually. Not me though. But that's ok, I was gunna see if Elizabeth was busy anyway! I'll figure something out!!

So that's pretty much all I have to say! Oh, I spose I could say that I enjoyed talkin to my fav. lady on the telephone last night! Um... and that's it!

Peace Easy people!

"YOU KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME" by Matthew West

......... I don't need to type the lyrics... you know 'em already... they're for you!

Yesterday flippin rocked!!!!

I went over to Christina's after school and chilled yesterday and ate really good cookies! It was sweet. Then Josh came over and Rebecca FINALLY woke up! haha! We chilled in the basement for a while and then went to youth group. Youth was absolutely amazing!! Bruce is such a cool guy, I miss talking to him so much! We talked for so long like during the retreat and when went to GR town for the Never The Same Camp rally, and it was so cool. Bruce has so many cool things to say and awesome advice, I really need to talk to that guy more!

Anyways, Bruce gave a sweeeeeeet testimony type dealie and it was so inspirational, and the coolest part was that Christina came to youth again and she said that SHE LOVED IT!!!! She thought Bruce was really inspirational, and she even came up for the alter call. I don't know if she is a christian yet, but she's on her way!!! I've had some awesome convos with that girl. She has changed soooo much since everything started, and it's been awesome. I love that girl to death!

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I talked to Ben before hand and it actually went pretty well. We talked about all of our crap and it was kind of funny. I was really blunt about it, just like... "Ben, we have some crap, we're being retarded, and we need to talk," and he totally agreed. So we fixed our crap and now hopefully things will be heading down a better course for our friendship.

So after all of that, we broke into our small groups, and of course, it was as sweet as ever... mostly cuz Jeremy was back! Oh man, I missed that guy... haha.. anyways... So small groups led to some good talks and some sweet prayers, and then I got to do the coolest thing of all - Dance with my two favorite ladies!!! I just love so much when they're in a good mood, and it makes me even happier! I felt really close with Elizabeth and it was so sweet! She was being really cool, and that's the way I wish it was 24-7! Things have been soooo good with us and I couldn't ask for a better friend! Mandy was all giddy too, and it was soooo funny. That girl makes me laugh so much!

Next, it was the moment of truth.... we (Josh, Dave, Robin, and I) were on our way to see.... STAR WARS EPISODE III!!! WHOO HOO!!!! We waited in line for like an hour and a half-ish and I got reunited with some old friends from TC West too, it was really cool. I couldn't stop laughing either because A. I was hyper from two huge energy drinks and about 200 chocolate chip christina cookies, and B. There were so many geeks all dressed up in Star Wars costumes with their little light saber toys.. haha oh man I was like peeing myself! Soooo... we watched the movie and it was better than I even thought! It was probably one of the best movies I've ever seen! I couldn't believe how amazing it was! I just wish Elizabeth could have been there! Sorry Elizabeth haha... I wish I could have gotten you a ticket!

So yea... I got home around 3 ish and got about 2 and a half hours of sleep before going to school to take a huge math test 1st hour! All in all the day was pretty good and when I got home I did the only thing left to do... I TOOK A NAP! Naturally about 2 or so hours later, Elizabeth called and woke me up :P ! But that's ok, who could ask for a better wake up call? We had a sweet talk and then I went and ate dinner. Some other stuff happened, blah blah blah... and now I'm here typing this and I'm all out of things to say. I wasn't gunna type this much, but I know how interesting you all think my life is, and who am I to disappoint my fans?!?! Until next time...

Peace Easy